I became very inactive, maybe some of you have realised that. I don't really have that big interests anymore at having a little community watching/commenting/faving my Artwork or support me in need. Many people seem to don't care about me and my Artwork and effort I put into it, like my community I had broke and yeah. And I'm not really drawing that much anymore because I got really busy lately, I am seriously having an reallife that I don't got online that much for days or sleep at my boyfriend or he sleeps at my house.
It is really difficult to have interest in something if nobody supports you, its like talking with a wall about my feelings and try to feel better but It won't work. So after a long time thinking,
I maybe came to an end with this account and deactivate it for some time.
I just don't see myself improving or someone giving me critique to help me get better,
it's an vicious circle without any help and hope.
If I look back over 4 months ago, deviantART was my life I always tried to be active as fuck, to support others in the community. But to be honest most of the community became thrash many people are beefing (arguing) about the dumbest things, so much people are complaining about any thing or some mainstreamshit or others complain that they don't get the attention they need.
And no, I'm not complaining that I dont get the attention I need, I'm just shocked how my little community I had dissapeared.
Well, after this journal in 2-3 Days I will deactivate my account for a longer while.
Maybe weeks, months, I don't know.